Turning 17 now, Dad is continuously pressuring me to pull my weight and cost in this family, my oldest sister, which my dad might slightly love more than the rest of his children, is of no f☆cking help at all related to my newfound adulthood/college preparation, my mom's a stay-at-home mom that cleans everything, which means I don't have chores(AKA discipline), and I have no other guidance to help me besides my own.
(No offense to my family members. I love you guys, but you did not prepare me at all to survive on my own.)
Just finishing my resume in order to apply for a place my sister works at - and the job is totally not what I want.
"Too bad, so sad," right? "It's the working world, Mai, stop complaining!"
I know, I know...but I'd want a place I'd like
to work at ALRIGHT?! I know I'm going to be in a bad mood if I'm doing something I don't atleast mildly like.
I'd be okay with a library
owned by the state, but I don't think they pay their workers! (I lerv reading...j/kit'sforthemanga)...Do they volunteer? Michael's Arts & Crafts
was a choice because I'd always buy my art supplies there. I applied online and was never contacted. (To be honest, my application was crappy anyway).
Another place I thought of applying for was Barnes & Noble
! I only wanted to work there because it looked like you didn't really need to have a lot of social skills, (ME BEING THE SHYEST, QUIETEST, AND MOST AWKWARD THING ON THE F☆☆KING PLANET) and they sold manga! LOL (I decided this at like 15 okay). well den, how about jobs related directly to art? Commissions -
Well, here's where I'm SOL.
-My page barely gets views and it feels like my watchers are asleep most of the time. I average about 1 comment per deviation, and sometimes, it's even my own.
-GOOD art I've made is usually from inspiration that's hit me at 3 AM in the morning, when I am probably the most sleep-deprived and have the lowest
of basic energy. CURSE DAT INSOMNIA/HYPOGLYCEMIA/DISORDERS I THINK I HAVE...!
How the hell am I supposed to get a job without a degree, much less, as an adolescent that still hasn't graduated high school?
Life is tough when you start to grow up. Being babied and spoon-fed my whole life hasn't helped one bit so far.
Overall, this journal is pretty negative. But don't you worry! I'm going to sort it out (: I am going to get a job somehow and I AM GOING TO F☆☆CKING LIKE IT!
Wish me luck ~